Natural FET CD33 (17dp2dt)

My BT today. Reached kkh at 9am. Now returning home to wait for the call. I know my chance is slim. Yesterday I even went out to have oysters, sashimi at buffet town. To "celebrate" the frightening news today. I told hubby about the hpt bfn to prepare him. He was upset but wanted to try again. The nurse may call anytime now.. I feel my heart skip whenever I think about the call.

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Nurse call at 11.45am. Announce the bad news to me, tell me to stop medication n to go for dr review on 8 jan.....

Natural FET CD30 (15dp2dt)

BFN.

I test on Watson test kit. I think this is the answer. I still have to continue progesterone till BT on Monday. Haiz.. To get the confirm bfn from nurse. This is a torture 2ww.

Dr zou SMS to ask if it successful. So nice of her to remember me despite her busy schedule. Too bad, I have no good news to announce.

Natural FET CD28 (13dp2dt)

I tried again this morning on the internet cheapest. BFN. Sigh... Should I give up hope this cycle? 

Natural FET CD26 (11dp2dt)

I cheated. I thought I can endure till Wednesday but I poas this morning. BFN. Not even a faint line. Upset. I told my self it could be too early to test, but I can't help feeling pessimistic. Tears just rolled. I will test on Thursday again...

Natural FET CD25 (10dp2dt)

Yesterday, I have cramp again. Like AF cramp. It getting stronger. I also caught the cold, running nose. Hope it didn't affect my babies.  I saw online, cold can be early pregnancy symptom too. Hope so.

I m counting down.. I want to test on Wednesday morning. Less than 48hrs to test..

Natural FET CD24 (9dp2dt)

I felt abit or very mild nauseous for awhile, on off. I couldn't help thinking about it and went online search. I read few blogs. Few have it and end up negative. But there are also positive case. It really hard to thinking not to test hpt. Dr zou said I can test tomorrow if I want to. Well although I am dying to test, I feel it too early. I m afraid of getting what I don't like to see. I will try to hold back further. Wish me luck.

Implantation is complete, cells that will eventually become the placenta and fetus have begun to develop. HCG enter into blood stream.

Natural FET CD22 (7dp2dt)

Hubby has been very sweet after ET. He help to put in the pressary every morning and evening. I hope there is daddy luck! He had also bought durian for me. Almost every night he will greet and "sayang" my tummy. Hope snowies & jelly feel it and strive harder to stick.
Yesterday I also felt right side abit cramp. Then it was left side cramp again. Very mild.

Snowies & jelly, please continue your implantation. 

Natural FET CD21 (6dp2dt)

Yesterday I felt pain around my left side of the womb for 1 sec. I wonder is it cramp? Or gastric pain? Or I m imagined thing? I prayed it is implantation cramp. These few days snowies & jelly should be implanting onto me. According to ivf.ca calculator implantation will occur within 12 to 16 nov. Really hope so...

I have an urge to test hpt early. But I m holding back. 6dpt is way too early.

Today, The blastocyst attaches deeper into the uterine lining, beginning implantation  

Natural FET CD18 (3dp2dt)

I feel mild mild cramp on the left side yesterday. Just awhile. Almost the same kind of cramp I had last ivf 3 dpt. too early for implantation cramp. I wonder what that.  I went online to check for 3d symptom. They said it could be the little one is snuggling in and letting mummy know they are there. I like the conclusion. Haha. Today snowies and jelly are turning blastocysts! Keke...

Accupunture today.

Natural FET CD17 (2dp2dt)

One - The embryo continues to grow and develop, turning from a 6-8 cell embryo into a morula 
Two - The cells of the morula continue to divide, developing into a blastocyst 
Three - The blastocyst begins to hatch out of its shell  
Four - The blastocyst continues to hatch out of its shell and begins to attach itself to the uterus 
FiveThe blastocyst attaches deeper into the uterine lining, beginning implantation  
SixImplantation continues 
SevenImplantation is complete, cells that will eventually become the placenta and fetus have begun to develop 
 EightHuman chorionic gonadotropin (hCG) starts to enter the blood stream  
NineFetal development continues and hCG continues to be secreted  
TenFetal development continues and hCG continues to be secreted  
 ElevenLevels of hCG are now high enough to detect a pregnancy 

Gosh today is only 2nd day past transfer and I am fill with anxiety. Time past so slow! Trying to finish a book to past time. Went temple pray today. I promise to return 200 red eggs after baby full month if Zhu Shen Niang Niang can grant my wish to have a baby this ivf.

Natural FET CD15

Today is my embryo transfer day. I didn't have a full bladder on time and was delayed half hr because my dr had to perform a c-sec. I did my ET at about 1.30pm. One of my embryo did not response after thaw and so the third one is thaw. Now I have two snowies inside me. Both at day 2, grade 4 & 3. (Grading system 5 is the best) left 1 grade 3 in freeze.

Hubby brought me to Pizza Hut and we did abit of groceries before heading home. Had red bean soup again.

Oh I am officially in 2ww. I am going to drown myself with dramas, running man and books.  My blood test is 25 nov... So long. Hope I can endure till then.

Natural FET CD14

I woke up by a call from KKH. Nurse told me that they will unfreeze 2 first and unless the 2 didn't survive, then they will unfreeze the other 2. Sound logical so I agreed.

Tomorrow is my big day. I am meeting snowies. Hope they are doing good. I miss them. Hehe...

Tonite I am making "jelly" too. I am so "kiasu".  ;p

Natural FET CD13

My BBT did not rise today. It's at 36.25 deg c. I may not have ovulate despite opk positive yesterday. We BD yesterday hoping for a natural one too. 😛 let see if temp will rise tomorrow.

Reviewing dr said I m not doing blastocyst.. But my appointment with dr in charge (Dr Lau)has been suggesting blastocyst cycle for me. He said Dr Lau did not write down. I wonder is it miscommunication. Anyway I just follow what Dr lau has write down. Thaw 4, transfer 2. I did not clarify with Dr lau because I feel if it meant to be, blastocyst or not the result will be the same. I hope I am not stupid or making mistake thinking this way... Do you agree? ....

Natural FET CD12

Lining 9 triple, right 19mm, opk positive

Had red bean soup & Accupunture today. Tcm physician told me lining 9 is the passing grade for embryo transfer. Woosh.. Luckily my lining catch up on time...

Dr said He will unfreeze all my 4 embryo and transfer the best 2 on Friday. Yes! Finally going to reunite with snowy (embryo nick) on Friday. Now Friday seem so long!

Natural FET CD11

Lining 7.5 triple, right 16.5mm, left 7mm, opk neg

Eating red bean soup to increase lining. Accupunture today.

Natural FET CD 8

D9 but nurse said today should be CD8 since my menses came in the afternoon this month. I already went accupunture twice this week to prepare for my natural thaw. U/S shows right 12mm, left 7mm, lining 6 triple. Next scan is on Monday and was told to test opk on Sunday.

My ivf experience in June 2013

 I want to share my ivf experience, after 1 month of lucrin jabs, I started my puregon jab In June.
After ET, I was having brown spotting on d11p2dt and went to took a BT which is bfn. On d12p2dt, I start to bleed n I think my mense is here since BT also bfn. I called up kkivf and was told I can stop medication. So I accepted my fate and enjoyed my forbidden food which I have avoid during ivf journey. Spicy food, coffee, Tibit. D14p2dt, I started pass out 1 large clot (half size of 2$ notes n 2 small 20c clots). I was bleeding heavily and lasted 1 wk. I went back to work. I know it game over n didn't go for d18 BT. On 22dp2dt, I start to spot n then bleed again. I m thinking why m I having 2nd mense in 1 month? I took a hpt n it show bfp!? I was in shocked and I took another 4 hpt to ensure not false positive n all came out bfp!? I got worried that is another miscarriage n I went to o&g for BT . I was still bleeding n My hcg is 209.5. I was told to cont my progesterone support n go back for 2nd BT. Hcg drop 167. Dr couldn't find sac n told I have miscarriage...

I tot my ivf had really ended this time, but it did not. I was told to have a natural miscarriage. To let the clots pass out by it self since I was already bleeding. Dr said my bleeding will stop in 1-2 weeks time and then do a hpt to ensure it negative. After 1 week, I test on a hpt and result - bfp? I thought there still left over hcg in my body so I waited to test in another few days. 4 days later tested - still bfp? I still have spotting & bleeding all this while.. I called up hospital. The nurse told me to go down for a BT again. In my heart I was thinking if BT result negative it will be a joke. Since I am working, I went down next day. My BT was 690+. Gosh.. Dr perform another u/s on me. It show a mass on my left tube.. Meaning my pregnancy was  at my left tube.. Dr told me was ectopic and want immediate surgery . I was almost 8 weeks that day. I ask for alternative. He said my tube was abit damage & leaking blood internally. I said I need to consider and went off. I went to seek 2 nd opinion. The dr told me the same thing. Surgery was the best option for me. So I went for surgery the next day.

Abit about me

I have started my frozen embryo transfer cycle this month. I want to document my (苦于乐）during my ttc journey. So far in these 3 years, there is more 苦 than 乐...
 I am a sahw (stay at home wife). No kid at the moment and had quit my job recently to try for one. Hopefully thinking that without my previous jobscope I will be less stressful and may conceive soon.
My Medical history:
2011: 4 cycles clomid - bfn
2012: 2 cycles letrozole - bfn
2012 - 2013: 2 SOIUI, puregon 50iu - bfn
2013 apr: laparoscopy, remove choc cyst & suspect endo?
2013 jun: 1 ivf, puregon 300iu ended ectopic pregnancy, left tube remove
2013 nov: FET - bfp pls!!! (I hope this list will end in nov with my successful fet.)

I have been reading books about fertility, ivf, baby parenting, feng shui in fertility and even horoscope for 2014. Hoping to see if god will give me hint that I will preggy soon. I had tried opk, bbt and tracking mucus before I embarked my assisted conception program. I m obsess about getting pregnant and my life seem to move on slowly.